Behind the Blue Swing

There's a worn patch of grass behind the blue swing. I stand there, pushing and pushing, until my arms ache. Sometimes she giggles or sings or chats with me. Sometimes she calls "higher, higher!" and I do my best to oblige, despite the fact that she is much bigger than she was last year, and … Continue reading Behind the Blue Swing

The Courage to Wait

Natalie is on a Cinderella kick right now. We do a lot of fairy godmother magic together... turning invisible pumpkins into equally invisible carriages and making imaginary glass slippers appear on our feet. She sweeps her wand of pink and blue ribbons through the air and creates a palace in our family room so we … Continue reading The Courage to Wait

Refined

Two days ago we celebrated Faith's 4th birthday. When I think about the journey we've been on since she was born, about who I am today in large part because of the work God did in my life through her, the word "refined" comes to mind. In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a … Continue reading Refined

Grief Is…

They say there are stages to grief and I imagine that is generally true, but since every individual person is different, I believe grief manifests itself in a variety of ways. In the days, weeks, and months after Faith died my grief took on many forms. And while I'm no expert, it is through my … Continue reading Grief Is…

Our Story

Four years ago Steve picked up Thai food and brought it back to our hospital room. After dinner we shared chocolate covered strawberries for dessert. It was our 4th anniversary. The following morning we would hold our daughter, Faith, for the first and last time. Today we celebrate 8 years of marriage. It's strange to realize … Continue reading Our Story