When I Look at You

When I look at you, I see wide eyes full of wonder. As a newborn, long before you could talk, your eyes spoke volumes. I’ll never forget how you looked, tiny face peeking out from a swaddled bundle, wide eyes staring up at me. I was terrified, feeling so inadequate to care for you and … Continue reading When I Look at You

Undefeatable Joy

Tomorrow is Christmas. The excitement in our house is palatable, and its not just the kids. Christmas is my favorite celebration and I love this whole season, which feels extra special at the end of this challenging year. It goes without saying that 2020 has been a difficult year, but to be perfectly honest, on … Continue reading Undefeatable Joy

The Road Goes Ever On

Nine days after her third heart surgery, our little "Wonder Woman" was discharged from the hospital. We celebrated that night with play time in our apartment and delicious local takeout for dinner, but the real celebration came the next afternoon when we arrived home and the girls were reunited. Watching their sweet hug was the … Continue reading The Road Goes Ever On

Worth It

Hope has her third heart surgery tomorrow. That's not a sentence I ever imagined or wished to write about my child. For quite a while this path that she has to walk was hard for me to accept. I kept dwelling on what her life would have, could have, and should have looked like if … Continue reading Worth It

Even If

Recently I found the classic VeggieTales movie Rack, Shack and Benny to watch with Natalie for the first time. While I nostalgically sang along with tunes I hadn't heard in years, Natalie anxiously half-covered her eyes with her hands. "I don't want to see the fire," she pleaded. She has learned the real story of … Continue reading Even If