I thought I knew God. I grew up learning about Him at home, at church, at camps, and through my own study and prayer. I attended a Christian college and was just a handful of credits short of a minor in religion thanks to all the Bible courses I took as electives. I knew my … Continue reading He Knows Me
Dear Faith, Happy 5th birthday my sweet daughter! I can't believe it has been five years since I held you in my arms. It's funny, but ever since you were born I've pictured you in Heaven about the age you would be now. I don't know why but that's how I've often imagined you... a … Continue reading Dear Faith
Two days ago we celebrated Faith's 4th birthday. When I think about the journey we've been on since she was born, about who I am today in large part because of the work God did in my life through her, the word "refined" comes to mind. In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a … Continue reading Refined
Dear Faith, Happy 4th birthday my sweet girl! It's a beautiful day today - warm and sunny, my favorite kind of day. I miss you very much, but when I look up at the bright blue sky and think about what it must be like for you in Heaven, that makes me smile. I want … Continue reading Dear Faith (On Your 4th Birthday)
Four years ago Steve picked up Thai food and brought it back to our hospital room. After dinner we shared chocolate covered strawberries for dessert. It was our 4th anniversary. The following morning we would hold our daughter, Faith, for the first and last time. Today we celebrate 8 years of marriage. It's strange to realize … Continue reading Our Story
How do you "celebrate" the birthday of a child who has died? There's no guidebook for that, no answer that works for everyone. For me it means writing. Writing is my way to reflect on everything we experienced. It's my way to honor Faith's short life here on earth. And when writing I pray that someone - even just … Continue reading Valleys of Sorrow to Rivers of Joy
Have you ever felt like you were sinking in the midst of a life storm? When my husband and I found out, 30 weeks into my first pregnancy, that our baby was suddenly and inexplicably very sick, I knew God was still in control. When Faith was born two weeks later and the doctor's face revealed … Continue reading When You’re Sinking
Read: Hebrews 11:7-12, 17-19 What do you think of when you hear the name Abraham? Maybe the way he was called by God and given a promise that he would be a father of nations? Or perhaps the fact that he became a father to Isaac at the age of 100? Maybe the words of … Continue reading Faith Like Abraham (Hebrews 11 Series, Part 2 of 4)
Read: Hebrews 11 then re-read verses 1 and 6 From the end of the kitchen I hear her little voice, "One, two, three, go!" Scampering feet as she runs to the family room, straight at me, and leaps into my arms. I hold her close and we tumble together into a pile a pillows. "Again, … Continue reading What is Faith? (Hebrews 11 Series, Part 1 of 4)
